Some times, I wish I did not have to account other people’s feelings into consideration before I erupt.
Many times, I unfortunately do so and then regret it the moment later. I am now learning to care more and I understand that now.
Some times, I wish I did not live in a world where life is this unfair.
Many times, I have no other choice but to live in this unfair world.
Some times, I wish I had all the time in the world to do everything I want without the need to worry for money
Many times, I fantasise about doing so but ultimately fantasies lead you no where. So I am doing my best and working hard so that I have the money to do everything I want and hope.
Some times, I wish I did not have to live a life where I only remember sorrows and seeds of hate
Many times, I have now realised this is the life I was given and there is nothing I could do to change it
Some times, I wish I could share more
Many times, I understand why I haven’t
Some times, I wish not to be consumed by the idea of love knowing what I expect will never happen
Many times, I let it happen
Some times, I wish I could leave for the woods and a city like New York
Many times, what I do instead is I listen to music and watch videos that make it possible
Some times, I wish I was more creative and not filled with remorse or self doubt about what I could do
Many times, I believe I am more than what I think and believe but my doubts plague me down
Some times, I loose my sleep and mind thinking if I will ever make it
Many times, I doubt if I would make it and Many times, I have hope that I will make it.
Some times, I wish the world could be a better place in terms of everything
Many times, I wish the world could be a better place in terms of everything and I try doing my bit to make this world a better place for everyone and everything. When it succeeds, I am happy and inspired to do more.
Some times, I wish I had not watched that many movies which have now influenced me to think that my life could perhaps be like that
Many times, I am glad I have watched those movies because that is the only way I could ever live a life like that
Some times, I wish I did not have to feel so much
Many times, I am glad I could feel the way I feel
Many times, I feel my heart shatter at the sight of homeless people and the jobs one needs to do to have a living. I wonder what can I do to help? Then I realize, by growing up and getting a job, I can do my bit for them.
Some times, I wish I could do something about the dark desires I want to do
Many times, I have chosen not to act on it because I do not want to take part in painting the world red contributing to everything bad
Many times I wish I did not feel a burst of sadness and sympathy when I look at old people who remind me of my grandparents
Some times are the only times I take an action to spend time with them.
Many times I wish I were not engrossed in my laptop and on my phone
Sometimes I decide to spend some time in the outside world with my family and that time is actually worth spending.
Some times, I wish I was not given this life. I wish I had been offered a choice for a life I wanted to lead
Many times, I am glad I got this life but the hope still lingers
Some times, I am envious when people think of my life not exciting as other
Many times, I simply do not care and move on
Some times, I wish I had a sibling so that I would never fear being alone when my parents leave me
Many times, I am glad I am the only child in my family because I love that I am the sole receiver of all their love
Many times, I wish I could lie down in a room so high with a view that overlooked the city lights listening to music that make me feel everything
Many times, I find myself wishing to be in a cabin in the woods amongst the forest listening to the rain and writing
Many times, I find myself dreaming of being in an apartment so high where I could see the rays of the sun spread across the whole city.
Many times, I wish I could honour every promise I have made to everyone I ever love
Some times in many, I have honoured those promises
Some times, I wish I had a best friend who was all to myself. A best friendship like Miley and Lilly, Alex and Harper and like the F.R.I.E.N.D.S
Many times, I am so blessed to be in best friendships unique and happy to me.
Many times, I dream about a love so great that the whole world will write stories about someday.
Many times, I understand the probability of it not happening. Many times, I come to terms of my reality and what is offered.
Many times, I wish I was handed a childhood where I did not have to see my parents fight a lot.
Some times, I wish the Armageddon would come and sweep it all away.
Many times, I wish I did not have regrets in life to look back upon
Some times, I realise those regrets were needed for me to learn but I cannot help thinking on how they could have been avoided. I guess that is just my mind. Never satisfied.
Many times, I wish I had not kept so many secrets from my parents. I wish I could have let them know it all but I know I will be judged, possibly even worse.
Many of the times, I dwell in the nostakgaix of my childhood and wish I were trapped in that state forever
Many of the times, I am glad I am growing up to be more independent and free because I can edit my own path and see where it goes. I am happy for the freedom I get and for the chances I can take. I am also happy because of the progress in growing up because I get to be further away from all the fights I have to witness.
Some times, I wish I never left my home
Many times, I am glad I did but then I weep at stages
Many times, I wish people could see me through my eyes and not theirs
Some times, I am glad that is not the case because through different eyes, different and unique perspectives come out and you learn a lot more that way. You know they like you or do not like for who you are from their eyes and not from the monstrous eyes you have. It makes things slightly better in many ways.
Many times, I wish I could be happy with the way I am
Some times, I am very ecstatic and proud and then the other times I am not and I wish I could change every single detail about myself.
Many times, I wish I could show people the changes I wish they could bring upon themselves
Some times, I ponder on why they can’t see what they do.
Many times, I wish life had not handed me the atrocious parts in a sliver platter
Some times, I understand why life handed me them. To make me grow or I deserved it?
There are going to be plenty of these some and many times in my life and I know I can do something about it or nothing at all.
I will try and achieve as many of these some and many times in my life but also what I like to do instead is to fantasise and think of the possibilities rather than end my misery because there is something in this misery that keeps my mind alive and ticking.