Day 1 out of the number of days I will try to write continuously.

Yesterday was my birthday and surprisingly, I enjoyed it despite the whole world in quarantine. I think this will go down in ‘one of the best birthdays of all time’ list. Thank you to my best friends Dale and Raveena and my parents who made it joyful!

I am 21. So, a legal adult who will deal with legal repercussions.

Moving on from that, I am now free from my university obligations. I was supposed to be done with my assignments tomorrow. But why stretch it, so I handed over everything the day before my birthday so I can start my life as a 21 year old without stress. 

Starting my 21 with joy and the crying mentality that I am becoming older. True definition of growing older, at least to me.  

Having completed my assignments, I am now a free bird who no longer carries the weight of her babies. 

Now that I am free, I do not know what to do with all this time I have. 

Countless tasks and actions come to mind but none seem to want to formulate. 

I am trying to finish reading a book, but my mind wanders off to doing something that I don’t even know.

I was learning Japanese back when I was doing my assignments but now that I finished my assignments, learning a new language no longer grabs my attention 

I guess I took upon other tasks during my assessment time because I wanted my mind to focus on other things as well. 

I think I liked to have my mind engaged with a stressful obligation. The thrill of a deadline, having to complete your final task and finally handing it over. I miss the routine.

Now, I wake up and am in a constant turmoil of figuring out what to do from the limited tasks that I like. 

The days have never seemed so long. 

I am scouring the internet for games to play to stop the constant nagging of my bored mind. I am trying to finish reading the selfish gene by Richard Dawkins. 

I think it’s time to invest in an iPad pro. I am going all out, buying the keyboard and the stick. Thank you, father, for the money you will spend. I am grateful. I look forward to making money in the future. 

I also look forward to my times with iPad. I am hoping this will help me with being creative, organized and more productive. You know like those youtubers? 

This quarantine has made many people take up many tasks and seeing so many people read so much has made me upset with myself.

I claim that I love reading and I love books but why can’t I find the inspiration or motivation to finish reading a book?

On the other hand, I have been watching an array of movies. 

Movies can also be like books, right? The only thing different is that it “is a visual art-form used to simulate experiences that communicate ideas, stories, perceptions, feelings, beauty or atmosphere, by the means of recorded or programmed moving images, along with sound other sensory stimulations.”

I can’t wait to see how long I will continue to write my thoughts and what I do every day. 

Roshni, at least try doing this. It’s not like you have much to do anyways. 

It won’t be that hard to write down your thoughts on paper or in this case, on word on laptop. 

How hard is it to come up with new thoughts every day? Not impossible, it can be doable. 

I wait for the days when we all will reach a new normal. 

See you tomorrow!

I do not know what to write about.

It’s been a few days since I wrote something and I decided that I could write something now, but I don’t know what to write about.

I know that I am in a mood to write something but I don’t know what to write about. I am particulary not feeling any emotions or feelings to write something really big or pour my heart out. I just don’t know what to write about.

I don’t want to write about topics or situations if I am not in the mood because I believe mood is an important factor to my writings. When I am in the mood, I feel and I write more. I am not pressured to think more, create and write. I just flow.

I have mad respect for writers and their imagination of writing. It’s a talent indeed.

So it’s my summer break now and I do not have much to do. I wish to learn some Spanish, read a bit because it’s been a long time since I read for the joy of it. I am watching a lot of Youtube and Netflix which I am loving.

I want to explore more of Singapore right now, but I am lazy and I will do it soon. I just want to be at home and well be on my couch and enjoy lazing around.

So what does one do when they have nothing to write about? I pretty much do not have any thoughts now because of the all Youtube and Netflix I am keeping in the background and continuing to write.

I do have many piles of pieces that I have been working on, but I need to be in the zone for finishing them and I don’t think I am there now. I do not want to put pressure to finish it. I want to do it right and in the way I would like to do because if one does it unhappily, the work often does not come out in the way desired and would do more bad than good.

So take your time but if it’s with something important, prioritise it and do things accordingly. You don’t want to mess it up.

Right now I just want to be in the moment, for once not having much thoughts and overthinking about the future and all the chores left for me to do. I just want to be lazy.

I do hope in the next few days, I have my zest and zeal for writing not that I have not lost it entirely, but there are the cases of the blues. Am I writing this for the sake of putting something out there or do I mean it?

I guess I mean it. Sometimes I want to let myself know that it is okay if you don’t post a piece at all times. It is okay if it’s just a few lines or a long ballad. As long as you are happy with it and you feel content with the way you have expressed yourself. You are good to go!!

Out of the context, my keyboard suddenly seems to blind me because of the yellow light reflecting on it and it’s gettiong annoying to look at now.

So that’s it. I wanted to write about nothing and I did. I guess, I mean this is sort of something.

What to do?

As I am writing this, I am completely bored and I thought why not do some piece of writing to take my mind off from being bored.

Today is the day my summer break has officaly started. After weeks of intense research for my essay then going on to writing 3 essays that are 3500 words each, then crashing and having breakdowns; I have finally submitted everything before time and well I am done with it all.

So my summer break has begun because I do not have exams. This whole month, I had a routine set for me. Get up, do research, distract myself a bit and then get grinding. That was my routine and I was so heavily involved with it. Now that it’s gone and over. What do I do?

There are three days left for me to go back home, so these three days left here seem like an eternity, but then it got me thinking, I would defintely have to face days like these in my summer break because that’s going to be three months of free time without any stress. Well there is going to be massive stress about worrying for my results but other than that no stress.

So before leaving off to my summer break, I have one whole day dedicated to doing errands and exploring Nottingham again before I leave for summer break.

Honestly I have just been on my laptop and my phone for half the day and I am not going to be a type of person who says do this – do that because I am realtsic with the options I have and I know what I am capabable of. I am not going to be that positive inspiring sunshiny person but be realistic and see what I can actually do.

So that is what I am going to do during my summer break or atleast try to do.

So what to do indeed?

Write more and discover new aspects or just go with the flow of writing.

Try to read more because reading helps with the vocabulary and is a chance for me to explore and incooporate new worlds into my life

Watch a lot of Youtubers and Youtube content to live the lives of interesting people in other countires

Explore Singapore because I have heard that place has quite a lot of things to do

SPEND MORE TIME WITH FAMILY rather than spending all of it on the laptop

Write by the pool and listen to music, it might evoke some new inspiration in you

Watch loads of movies because summer break is the only time you get to do so and also watch shows as well

Listen to music, lie down and contemplate

Sleep, because sleep is worth every bit of it

Buy games in the steam summer sale so that you can play games and have fun and make up for the fact that you have no friends in Singapore to hang out with

Sometimes it’s good to make best use of what’s around you rather than going and chasing objects far within your reach, but that does not mean you give up on them. Maybe right now, you just don’t have the resources for it, so you can dream on and wait for it to finally happen someday

Write a short story about anything you want. Who cares if it’s good or bad. Do it for yourself and explore where your writing can take you

Try vlogging, you might like or it or you will hate it forever but I think you might like it considering how much I like ranting and well being on camera but not in the attention seeking sort of way

Discover more music on Spotify

Try changing some aspects of yourself, things that you are not a fan of. Keep this summer as a self love/discovery challenge for yourself!!

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