This thought down below is something I have jotted down in the past. This work down below describes how I feel when I get anxious.
I woke up with a feeling today
A feeling that hasn’t breached me since a long time
A feeling that never pricked me in this sort of manner
A feeling that I usually get at every point of my day and life but never got it when my eyes woke up to the sunlight
This feeling pounces upon me in the midst of nowhere
I do not know what causes it
There was a sense of dread and wreck havocing my heart and body
I felt anxious and overwhelmed at every step and turn I took
An uneasy darkness took over my heart and mind and I stood there from a distance watching and being helpless
I tried everything that I could, I tried shifting my mind to one thought from an other, I tried to think of things and moments that made me happy
I would have any other feeling rather than this
This feeling was the worst of all
It was dreadful, an eeary sense of bad aura wraps me in an instant
My heart aches and pounds, I am not sure why
I feel it race and each minute gets harder by the second
My breath gets shaky, it doesn’t get easier by the minute, it gets ragged
Nothing much goes on in my mind except for the thought on how do I get rid of this feeling
Every bad thought, lies and moments come to my mind and it keeps filling in
It feels as I am in a tank and with water flooding in making it hard to breathe
I am trying to think of why and what went wrong and is there anything I can do to fix it
I could think of many reasons as to why I feel like this but nothing doesn’t seem to fit the piece in the puzzle
When I am all calm, I try to take a few steps back and look upon the puzzle again, I never realize what made me go into such an anxious mood
Sometimes I do figure it out, and I learn from it but the other times, I don’t know what causes it. So what do I do?
I am exhausted and tired, I do not know what to do and what to think
I am weary of this feeling and I wish and desire to be not burdened by this
I do not want you to get embedded in me
How do I free myself of you?
